Memory

This is a pretty rose in bloom down here! it is so beautiful!

The memory should be specially taxed in youth, since it is then that it is strongest and most tenacious. But in choosing the things that should be committed to memory the utmost care and forethought must be exercised; as lessons well learnt in youth are never forgotten.
Arthur Schopenhauer (1788 - 1860)

Seems as though my memory does get a little worse as time goes by, but for stuff I really don't need to remember. Things from the past come to the memory when I need them! Now can I remember to pay bills! teehee just don't want to sit and do them. Have always been that way, in fact at one time in my life I had my momma do them and at another had dau#2 do them I HATE PAYING BILLS!

If any one faculty of our nature may be called more wonderful than the rest, I do think it is memory. There seems something more speakingly incomprehensible in the powers, the failures, the inequalities of memory, than in any other of our intelligences. The memory is sometimes so retentive, so serviceable, so obedient; at others, so bewildered and so weak; and at others again, so tyrannic, so beyond control! We are, to be sure, a miracle every way; but our powers of recollecting and of forgetting do seem peculiarly past finding out.
Jane Austen (1775 - 1817), Mansfield Park

I have trouble remembering names too. I always remember a face! but a name escapes me. I think it's because I am a nurse and come in contact with so many people!
Thankfully I remember passwords, gads we have to remember so many of them!
Lately I have been remembering past events with family & friends, guess that's cause hubby died?
I almost always remember a dream-how many of ya remember dreams? do ya dream in color or black & white?
I know this post took a weird turn but that's my memory at work-you live with it HAHA!

R R R

Thanks That British Woman- I will play!

Here are the rules:

1. Leave a comment on this blog and I will assign you a letter.
2. Write about ten things you love that begin with said letter.
3. Post the list on your blog.
4. When people comment on your list, you assign them a letter, and the game continues.
She gave me an R o my! what begins with R? my mind is blank right now

1. Reality-sometimes cruel, but for the most part how I live- I don't like people telling even 'little white' lies however insignificant they may seem. Tell me the truth I can take it! We can correct it, but lie to me and you have to regain my trust!
2. Religion-not religiosity, but unfailing true faith in our awe inspiring God
3. Rainbow- how beautiful in the sky! we cran our necks to see. have ya ever seen a double one! I did one time overlooking a mountain in Colorado! To me it is a biblical truth! I hang onto.
4. Reassigned- a new favorite word- just received a letter from someone telling me Jim was reassigned to God's army- what a sweet written poem! What a wonderful thing to grab onto during this time!
5. Relatives- old ones, young ones, tall ones, short fat ones, I love em one and all, even ones that have been mean to me in the past-gotta forgive right!
6. Remembrances-goes with my feelings this week on memories-see my posts this week. We oft remember the bad times, but the good memories get us through to the next memory. I will always remember the night before we had the funeral and all my friends and families remembrances of Jim and our family over the years. Believe it or not it was a joyous occasion, almost irreverent at times. but 'us' and my crazy family!
7. Run- something I DON'T do. If God wanted me to run he would have given me a running body! not this plump granny figure! So don't ask me to run! The only running I do is "running an errand" or a 'runny nose'. actually I think run ought to be deleted from the dictionary! stop and smell the coffee, savor a moment!
8. Roses- lovely to look at especially the yellow and white ones,how about the red & pink ones and the new orange and variegated ones but don't send me any. I am allergic and I will start to sneeze! I have received a dozen roses more than once and loved em, BUT you should have seen my face all puffed up and listened to me sneeze!Thank God for antihistamines!
9. Rough times- puts everything into perspective. Makes one more thankful for what ya have!/had!
10. Ring- the pretty one I have on! the ring of truth, Resurrection for us all!

Memories

Dau #2 said to me , 'Mom when are ya gonna post something' so here goes. Guess I will just be a rambling granny today? This pic is of my grandchildren with their dad. Christmas morn 2008. They were excited from opening all their gifts, but not too sure they wanted to leave them behind to go with dad. We had to assure them they would be waiting upon their return. Huggs & kisses all around, a wonderful memory time, for this was one of the last times they would see grandpa! How lovely their dad let them have Christmas with us, as it was his turn this year.

Own only what you can carry with you; know language, know countries, know people. Let your memory be your travel bag.
Alexander Solzhenitsyn (1918 - )

Twins are wonderfull

These kiddos are actually enjoying the fire AND roasting marshmallows-isn't it wonderful having a crazy granny that lets ya do such stuff while momma bulks at it!

You can turn painful situations around through
laughter. If you can find humor in anything - even
poverty - you can survive it.
- Bill Cosby



Every time I close the door on reality it comes in through the windows
- Jennifer Unlimited


I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes
several days attack me at once.
- Jennifer Unlimited

OK who is whom!?

silence

I have been kinda quiet since my hubby's passing. Don't really know how long this silence will be holding me, quite weird actually, especially if ya really know me! Tears have pretty much escaped me, but I find myself sooo quiet? Is it disbelief that he is actually gone? Is it me thinking what shall I do now or next? so much to do, and don't want to start any of it??

The eternal silence of these infinite spaces fills me with dread.
Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662)

So quess I will have to fill the spaces with some wonderful pictures! Look at this beautiful child and the wonderment of Christmas.
kaylee 10months
She is gonna make the silence alive with misic when she plays this!

Silence is more musical than any song.
Christina Rossetti (1830 - 1894)
So Christina should I listen to the song of the silence?

Thanks everyone for the kind comments-I treasure every one!

A Real Loss

My hubby aka Jim, Mountain Man, Big Jim, Poppie, Honey died suddenly in my arms on Dec 19th. We enjoyed a lovely Christmas with much of our family. We went from home to home having Christmas over and over again.
He hadn't really been sick, but was suffering with arthritis in his knee he injured in football when in high school. We almost lost him back in 1999 after a heart attack & MRSA infection in his chest-complications from his triple bypass. Then again 4years back when he developed pickwichian syndrome, a syndrome named for Pickwick of Charles Dickens fame, developing obesity, somnolence & obstructive lung disease. He was using oxygen all the time and could hardly get around.
You see Jim weighed in at about 500 pounds. Then one day he decided to get gastric bypass surgery and became a trim 254 pounds @ 6ft 2in.
In his younger years he was quite an athlete, becoming ALL STATE in Football, Wrestling & Field & Track. He garnered a full scholarship to Northwestern University, but due to surgery & illness was unable to complete that endeavor.
He went into The Army Security Agency and served in Japan during the Vietnam Conflict. It was during this time we met-he was visiting his then girlfriend, who was a classmate of mine in nursing school.
We married when he finished with the army & I had completed my nursing school.
We lived in Colorado for the first 2yrs of marriage, our first dau was born there.
We moved back to NJ in 1970, our second dau born in '72. We would have been married
40 years in March.
He had a strong interest in education and seemed like he went to school most of our married life. He obtained an Assoc Degree in Nursing from Atlantic Community College, BS in Theological Studies @ Philadelphia Biblical University & then @ 62 just months before his passing, he completed his Doctorate in Theological Studies from Cantebury University.
He loved our move to Florida and his motorcycle. He also enjoyed woodworking.
I think the most precious in his life were his grandchildren, he wanted to teach them so many things! Also was his sincere love of the Lord & the bible.
I am having some difficulty with taking this all in, but I had him 10 years longer than I thought I would have back in '99. He was a GOOD man! A good hubby & friend. A good parent & grandparent. I am sure he is resting in peace, as he should be.


CARVER, JAMES L., PH.D., 63 - of Safety Harbor, FL, and formerly of Rosedale died on Monday at his residence in Rosedale. Born in Craig, Colorado he lived in Rosedale for 39 years before moving to Florida. He was an US Army Veteran of the Vietnam War. Mr. Carver was a register nurse having worked at John F. Kennedy Hospital in Cherry Hill; Ancora State Hospital; Kessler Hospital In Hammonton and Meadowview Nursing Home in Williamstown. He also formerly worked as a Colorado State Patrolman. He was a member of the Riders of the Lamb motorcycle club. Mr. Carver is survived by his wife: Jacqueline A. Carver (nee Wooton); two daughters: Melanie Ann Carver of Safety Harbor, FL; Shannon Marie Connors of Mt. Airy, MD his mother: Eva Grace Carver of Golden, CO; one sister: Karen L. Vogeler of Golden, CO; one brother: Lance Craig Carver of Browns Mill; four grandchildren: Kenneth James Connors; Elizabeth Mariah Connors; Michelle Leigh Connors and Daniel Jackson Connors. Memorial Services will be held Wednesday 11:00am in Victory Bible Church, 816 S. Egg Harbor Road, Hammonton, where a visitation with the family will be held from 10:00am until 11:00am. Memorial donations may be made to Mt. Airy Christian Academy 16700 Old Frederick Road, Mt. Airy, MD 21771. Arrangements are by the Carnesale Funeral Home, Hammonton, NJ.

Published in The Press of Atlantic City on 12/30/2008